Long Time, No Blog

It's been far too long since my last blogger blog. I posted a few on the Myspace and totally forgot about my Blogger. I forgot how much blogging really helps me get my eyes in the right place for the day. Things have been real busy lately. Since my last blog I decided that I want to go to the Herberger School of Arts (no, they don't make hamburgers there). That's ASU's school for Arts and such. I want get my Jazz Studies Major and Lord-willingly work towards my Performance Major. It's going to be a huge load of work to do it but I am ready and willing to spend lots of timing learning all that I can. With the help of my awesome guitar teacher Donnie, it's going to be hard work but worth all the hours of practice. Can I just say that my guitar teacher is the best? Really, he is. Anyway, did you know that putting "anyways" at the beginning of a sentence is grammatically incorrect? Well, here's a prayer and some lyrics for the day! Have a good day.

Prayer for today:
Dear Lord, I pray that today I will surrender all control to you. Please help me to keep my anger not only to myself but to avoid becoming angry at all. Please help me be patient with all of those around me. Thank you for never giving up on me even when it seems that you should. You are beautiful and amazing beyond description. Your grace is so amazing. Thank you for your love. Amen.

Lyrics for today:

I'm as eloquent as an elephant
I'm as headstrong as the Mighty King Kong
On a rampage throwing airplanes
I can't believe you haven't gone away
I am difficult, argumentative
I'm as thick-skulled as the dinosaur bones on a display in a glass case
I can't believe you haven't run away

It must be different through your eyes
Because you look at me like it's the first time
That you've ever seen my face

I'm preoccupied with a crowded mind
I get off track like a train rolling back to the future
Never too sure who'll be here when I come back around
But I'm finding out

It must be different through your eyes
Because you look at me like it's the first time
That you've ever seen my face

"Eloquent"- Sanctus Real

I'm Sitting on My Phone (When, In All Reality, I Don't Actually Own a Phone)

Which, in fact, is true. I am indeed sitting on my cellphone while I am here at my job which doesn't pay me a cent. It's all good though, I am a volunteer, but I work a lot. Anyway, the reason I am sitting on my phone it that I want to make sure I could feel my phone vibrate if it rings. For some reason I cannot feel this particular phone vibrate in any of my front pockets. And since I work in a hospital, I really shouldn't have my phone on ring. Now, bristle not, I am doing my job, but sometimes there is a lull and I get to do random things like explore the chasms of wikipedia or (to my recent delight) blog. There are a lot of Internet restrictions here on the work computers, but I found a way to make do and entertain myself. It's funny how things are. I don't think I ever really spend a lot of time on wikipedia but when I am here at work I can be on wikipedia for two hours at a time. Just because you work in an endless field of work, it does allow though for the occasional lull. I get off in about an hour and a half...oh just kidding two and a half hours. Or maybe I'll try and get my supervisor to let me go back to my humble home. I'll try that. Yeah, sounds like a good idea. And I just took my phone out of my pocket because I discovered that my phone gets no service in my pocket, because T-Mobile doesn't have the greatest coverage. So if I move the phone about two feet, I get perfect service. So the phone is no longer in my pocket. Haha. Scrubs are comfortable. This is the longest, most random blog. And to top of the randomness, I'll add a lovely picture.

Good Grief, Blogger Brown!

WAH??? She forgot to blog? Yes I did. I've been working Dialysis at the hospital lately. Such things keep one quite busy! I haven't had time for anything, not even a social life. LOL. Well, hopefully I get the day off today. God has been teaching me all kinds of awesome things. Like patience and humility. Did you know that most people (like me) who tend to have a bad temper, need to work on their humility?? God showed me that. I kind of didn't think of them as synonymous. BUT they are! And God has really just been teaching me to look out for others, not me. What a great God we serve, eh?? If I could express is typing, it would be something like this: AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God really is! Mmmmhmmmm.

Prayer for Today:
Jesus, please help me to flip myself upside down for you, give me passion for the world around me and to shine your light to it. Please give me your compassion and love for those around me. You are amazing beyond description, thank you for being my best friend even when I feel like giving up. You hold my hand when I can't even hold myself up! Thank you for your mercy! I love you forever. Amen.

Lyrics for today:

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tile
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
To ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work
He's buying time
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

I've Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all alone

-Brandon Heath "Give Me Your Eyes"

Dashboard

Hoh my wow...I thought someone was breaking in this morning! It was scary. My parents are gone for their anniversary and my brothers were out for Josh's swim team which happens every morning. But they kept pouding on the door. So I decided to ignore it. I have to go get guitar strings today. Actually within the next hour so I can record and finalize at least two tracks for my album. So off, to work! Have a a great day! Oh I titled today's "Dashboard" because that was the first word I saw when I came to blog =)

My Prayer for Today:
Dear Jesus, as I go throuh this day, help me to focus on doing what I have to do and do it well for your glory. You are amazing beyond anything or anyone could ever describe. Thank you for being my best friend and for reeling me back in when I have swam so far away from you! Thank you Lord. Amen.

Lyrics for Today:
Hey little sister
Why do you cry?
Holding your head so low,
May I ask you why?

Don't you know that He loves you?
Don't you know that He cares?
He will never leave you, no,
And never leave you there.

'Cause you are perfect
You are perfectly,
Perfectly done.

And hey little brother,
I know life has been rough.
But I believe in you,
'Cause in God you are tough.

You must stand tall,
And leave it all.
Never let this whole world,
Take away your soul.

'Cause you are perfect,
You are perfectly,
Perfectly done.

You are perfect,
Yes, you are perfectly done.

"Perfectly Done"- Shawn McDonald

Getting Older and Moving On

It's pretty amazing. The people I have experienced my every life struggle, happiness, joy, sadness, gid with have now graduated. They are on to the real world. I am just so blown away by God's mercy and grace upon them. All five of them are such wonderful, Godly people I can't even begin to express how amazingly molded in Christ's image these kids are. Haha kids...they aren't kids anymore. Funny enough, neither am I; I'm a senior now. God's mercy and goodness are truely overwhelming in our lives. I'm so wowed. If any of you seniors ever end up reading my blog: Well done, my dear friends. You are in my prayers, keep Christ first and always look to Him for your strength. And come visit me at school =) I love you all! Now back to what I was saying. God's amazing power. When you really take a step back and see how much your friends have grown, God's beauty is really evident. At least to me it is. So I'm going to take this time to pray a prayer of thanksgiving.

Prayer for Today:
Dear Jesus, I am completely overwhelmed by your goodness and your mercy in my life and the lives of my friends. I pray that I never cease to see the glory in it all. THank you for being my fortress and strong rock as I have grown. I pray Lord that as I continue to grow that I will never grow away from you but I pray that would only grow closer to you. Please bless the graduates in this new stage of life. AMEN.

Monday Mania

AH SUMMER. first Monday of summer, I have to work a big bulk of the day, but it's cool!! Getting ready for a big giant party. I haven't had a big party at my house, well, in a very long time. I MUST clean my room today. It's a dump. Just had some breakfast and an Orange Julius, yum. Not a whole lot more to blog about. Working on patience. Patience is an amazing gift...that I definitely have very little of. And I hit blog number 20 the other day!!! WOW. cool.

Prayer for Today:
Dear Jesus, I am a restless soul. I am not patient. Please help me to see Your plan is right and it goes at the right speed. You are great and mightier than all my problems, help me to always look to you! Thank you for your grace and your patience with me. I can't do the things I need to do alone. Thank you for being my support. AMEN.

Lyrics for today:

Did I change your mind with
What I said last night?
Did I break your heart by
Straying so far?
From what you have in mind
For my life?

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I know I'm nothing
Without you

Did my words betray the
Patience I once claimed
Can't you see it in my face?
I need your grace

Would you change me from
Who I've been laterly?
'Cause I lnow I'm nothing
Without you
Would you save me from
The way I've been lately?
'Cause I can't see living
Without you

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I lnow I'm nothing
without you
Would you break me from
The way I've been lately?
'Cause I can't see living
Without you

"Change Me"- Sanctus Real

I Got a Haircut...

Actually I got a few too many cut...it's a little bit too short =( I miss my hair already. It's a good thing hair grows. Let's look on the bright side for a moment: even though it's rainy outside (yay btw!)...I have awide array of hats. =)And it's the last day of school!

Summer Feet

So, I'm pretty sick. The kind where no matter what you eat, your stomach doesn't like it. And I just went out to get the mail. That was hot. Just getting my summer feet on. I don't actually wear shoes very often in the summer. I can even walk on the hot pavement! But that particular walk was pretty hot because I haven't got my summer feet yet. I also got some sunshine, I haven't gotten any of that for about 24 hours. I definitely skipped my history final today but my mom's gonna give it to me when she gets home, because she's the history teacher. YAY! I think that I'm going to do some laundry so I have clean clothes. Because that's why you do laundry. Anyway this blog couldn't be any more random so...I'm going to go study =) Good day to you all. I'm kind of liking this adding pictures to my blog thing...it seems more...colorful. Cheers.

Please Take a Number and Wait Until We Call You!

Or in other words, sit and wait while stress brews and your mind spills out information that you need for your biggest speech of the year. That's what's happening. I am doing my speech right now and things are disappearing. This calls for a prayer for today!

Prayer for Today:
Dear Jesus, I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING CRAZY!! Please help me to just relax and work hard. YOu reward hard workers, those who work to your glory. Please help me to do my very best and at all costs, not to give up! YOu are my strength and my fortress, thank you for being my all in all. I love you with all my heart. Thank you. Amen

The Cards You're Delt

I have to memroize six more pages of material. I don't really have the time to write a big blog so here is a video that was incredibly moving to me. Have a look and think about it. http://link.brightcove.com/services/link/bcpid1517481413/bclid1527697194/bctid1533001469